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Thank you all for the support in the other thread guys. I completely understand the loss for words in a situation like this.

Yeah, I woke up this morning around 8:30 and his breathing was very labored. I immediatly grabbed his hand and caressed his forehead while I told him it was ok and I was there for him. I told him he didn't need to hang on anymore and that is was ok to let go. He actually opened his eyes and looked up as he let out faint moan and then went back to the heavy breathing.

About an hour later I recieved a phone call from a family friend, so I went outside to talk and smoke. After 5 minutes out there, I walked back into the house as he was taking in his last breath, and when he let it out, he made this noise that I believe is called the death rattle.

I instantly yelled.."NO" as I grabbed his hand and held it in mine. I must have bawled for about 5 minutes as I said things like: "It's Over.....It's finally Over". I knew that he would never feel pain again or suffer in any way, so I think that helped me recover from the initial shock of watching my father and best friend die.

I know it's over and time will heal the emptiness I feel, but I can tell you right now, it won't be easy. I'll just have to try and think about all those great things we were able to do and that extra close bond we had before his time here was through.

I have a recent picture here of the two of us taken about a month ago, which clearly shows all the weight that both of us lost. He lost his because of the cancer, and I lost mine (20-25 lbs.) because of the stress. I resized the picture too small so the quality of it isn't very good, but at least it shows us together.

 
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I posted on Z28.com, I'm here for you man, sorry for the loss. Read my message over there.

 
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Sorry Arch..I'm not going to say I know how it feels, because I don't. Unless you lose your father you can only relate, but I'm sure it must be rough.

Keep your head up though buddy- even though I'm across the country as are the rest of us, we are all here for you!!

 
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wow, i cant imagine what it's like but all i can say, is the worst is over, only bright things in your future and his as well. it's gotta be hell to think you will never be with him on earth again, but im sure you'll see him when the time is right. you know we're here for you and you always got some place to come.

sounds like you had a great relationship, and will remember all of it.

take care man, you'll do fine and get through it all. God won't give you anything he know you can't handle.

Good pic of you two by the way:thumbsup:

 
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I am so sorry, just remember you were next to him to help him along. That is something you will always be able to keep with you. You know you were there for him when he needed you the most. Plus with all the extra time you've been spending with him. I don't even want to think about what it would be like to lose my dad. We have a very close relationship like you do and it would tear me up inside to lose him.

 
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I lost my dad way back in '81 and my mom just a year ago this July ,so I know how you must really feel.The emptyness will go away in time,you will always have the beatiful memories,thats something no one can ever take away from you.You just have to remember that he is in heaven,no more pain .And some day we will all be reunited .Till that day ,live your life to the fullest & you will be alright .My condolence's.

 
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Sorry to hear that Arch.

 
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i was'nt there when my mom went,knowing you were there when your dad left you,i'm sure made it easier for him knowing you were there,he will always be with you ,no matter where you go or what you do,i'm very sure he's proud of you for your strength and courage for spending so much time with him in his time of need,i'm sure you know this,but it does get easier,while he is gone ,i'm sure never forgotten,hang in there.

 
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Im sorry to hear that.. Its always hard to lose a loved one. Its sad, but you have to think of all the good things because the negitives always make it worse. Its actually even makin me a little sad to hear what people go through when they lose someone so close. Im sorry man..

 
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sorry to hear that arch but at least he is out of pain now. hang in there and you will make it through

 
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very very sorry to hear that, and thats actually a very very nice picture of the two of you!

 
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My condolences go to you Arch. Take all the time you need. God bless man.

Btw, your dad looks very similar to Christopher Walken

 
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Sorry to hear it, bro. But from what the last few posts about it from you have been, maybe i shouldnt be sorry. Sounds like he wasn't in the best shape and i know you've probably heard it a million times now but he's in a better place. A place where the is no pain, the music is good, there are no smog restrictions, and transmitions are indestructable! Again, if you need anything Arch, we're all here for you. If i didnt have to work tomorrow i'd raise a shot glass in his honor for yah.

 
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I'm very sorry for your loss.Unfortunately I know what you are going through losing a parent.It's not easy,but with friends and family around you can get through it.When you start feeling sad ,you think about all of the happy times together.
Just know that he is watching over you now.

 
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sorry man, hope everything gets better...